Let’s see what I wrote in my tumblr when I just graduated from collegue :
“10 years from now, I will be 31. Means I may have reached or in my way to reach the top in my career. I will be in somewhere (I still can’t imagine of it), doing jobs for environmental and public health issues for a world organization, like UN maybe; and enjoy saving the world or at least make it a better world. Then, I may already had a wonderful succeeded husband and 2 awesome children. Live happily ever after in a small beautiful mansion of ours :D”
Now, let’s see my current situation :
Now I’m working in a Tire factory as a Costumer Service officer, dealing with numerical reports and do nothing to the environment. I’m not even using my knowledge about it. Moreover, now I’m not using my brain at all. I’m just sitting in front of the computer, typing, picking up telephones, and controlling my temper like- everyday. But I got paid. And the pay seems comforting me enough to stay calm. And even I am craving for quitting and always whining and do regretting my current life, I’m not actually doing the quitting. It’s just a big mouth of me. I’m just half heartedly applying new better jobs and searching scholarships. But you know, it’s really true that anything you do half heartedly will do no good.
Simply said : RIP my idealism.
*PLEASE someone reminds me in at least 24 hours after this super annoying personal reminder, that I should have back into the old-fired-up-and-whole-hearted me, with idealism. A slap/punch is allowed if needed.
